"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want." Psalm 123:1
It's almost July already, which means that summer is pretty much almost done. It's gone by sooooo fast, I can't believe it. My online class is done (finally). I ended up passing thanks to Jesus. There's no way I would have passed this class without Him. PTL. Recently, I've been debating whether or not I want to be in the choir this coming year at His House. I'm still not sure. I've been praying about it, but I'm still waiting for an answer from God. I wasn't sure I'd be able to handle living in one of the church houses along with being in the choir. That would take up a lot of time and commitment. I feel like if I'm not involved in the Church someway other than just going to church and living in the house that I will drift away from God and I don't want that. Then, today I got a message asking if I wanted to lead a lifegroup this coming year. Whoa baby. I wasn't expecting that. Just when I thought I was going to only go to church on sundays and not be in choir, God swoops in and presents an opportunity. I don't know if I'm cut out to be a leader, let alone a lifegroup leader. I don't know if I could help and lead other college aged girls in their walk with Christ. That's such a huge responsibility and commitment. Why would God present this opportunity. I'm still praying about it and will continue to pray about it because this is a big deal and a big decision to make.
On a different note, We're going kayaking on Sunday! I'm so excited! I love kayaking and I got a cute lil swimsuit so I'm stoked to put that thing on and wear it for the first time ever. I remember last year, my family went kayaking on the 4th of July and this year we're pretty much doing the same thing except it's not taking place on the 4th. That's not important though. I love my family and I feel so blessed to get along with every single one of them and to be able to spend time with them. Well not with all of them because we're all on different paths of life now. Jake's getting married this year so he doesn't only spend time with us anymore. He has future inlaws and his wonderful fiancee. Then Hannah's in Israel right now so we can't really spend time with her. I'm the eldest one at home. I don't feel old though because I'm still a young lil 19 year old. That will change soon though and thank goodness for that. 19 sounds soooo young but 20 sounds much more older.
I should try to embrace my age, I really should, because it is a good thing. I mean I can start my career at a younger age than most and move out at a younger age than most and I'd say that's pretty sweet.
Even though I have 2 years of college left, I've been thinking about the future. Where am I going to live? When am I going to finally get a car? Where am I going to work? so many questions and I don't have an answer for any of those. My plans differ from God's so much of the time so I find it better to not plan at all. God's plans are much much more awesome and better for us than what we can even imagine.
